Monday, August 20, 2012
5:54 AM | Posted by Jenny | Edit Post
Look at these fifteen fabulous children! They are each one beloved, treasured, and oh so unique. God just doesn't do clones or copies.
From every angle lately I've been hearing from mothers that are coming to grips with the reality that they can't be Jesus to their children. It's quite freeing to remember that in spite of the perfect environment, Adam and Eve still made a really poor choice to rebel. As much as we want to spare our children (and probably ourselves?!) the reality of living in a fallen world, it does no one any good when we continually live under a crushing weight of false-guilt that says"if only we were/did..." then our children would never "do/be x,y,z."
As mothers we are a piece of their story, a very significant piece, but we aren't their Savior. We are responsible for our own peace. And as I remind my children nearly daily, "Your joy doesn't depend on someone else changing." Choose the joy of His presence today, even if no one in your household has yet "arrived" at whatever standard you had hoped.
I take that "Do not worry about tomorrow" saying of Christ's seriously. I think it's fears about hypothetical futures for our children that can suck a lot of the joy from mothering. How can we even judge what all is going on in someone's heart or behind the scenes? Sometimes it's those 'elder brother' types that look like they have their "act together" that are really farthest from relationship with the Father. Maybe the messier, prodigal-type child is the one who is actually closer to the Father's embrace than we think.
Realizing that the only one you can control is yourself frees you up to really love without expectations. You don't need to manipulate circumstances or people to achieve some desired outcome, but you can trust God's processes. And He loves process. He who knows the end from the beginning is not hurried, frenzied, frustrated, or out of ideas. As He is, so are we to be in the world. Giving everyone a piece of our mind doesn't do as much to advance the Kingdom as giving everyone a glimpse at the Prince of Peace who rules our hearts and minds. As we currently possess the mind of Christ, we can think the thoughts about our children, ourselves, and our world that line up with the Kingdom of righteousness, peace, and joy.
That can only make motherhood more fun for everyone right?!
Speaking of fun, Esther made her debut at church this weekend. She had a great time, except when she got so brave with her walking that I forgot she is still pretty wobbly and she tripped and hit her head on the mailboxes outside the sanctuary. Thankfully all it takes is a couple cheerios to help her forget her troubles.
Adriana is very sweet with her sister. She didn't talk for years, but is now a singing, silly, verbal little girl. Was it all the speech therapy? Was it just time? Was it just Jesus? Some intricate combination of the three? I don't really know, but thankfully I don't have to figure it all out.
According to the Word I just have to love and follow my Good Shepherd. He is good, He has set us free indeed, and we are loved beyond measure. Not because we're perfect moms, or perfect anything....but just because we've been adopted by the perfect Father who IS love. He can't help Himself, it's who He is and the light of His countenance shines on our hearts. He is always holding our hands, especially when we get a little wobbly! Praying He is your stability today!