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Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Never Stuck

Yesterday was interesting.  After Antonio woke up he had the several hours postictal headache (that the neurologist calls "suicide headaches") where he just screams and cries out to God to help him.  He only gets relief when he begins to violently vomit for about a half and hour and then he can sleep the rest off.  As he was crying out for relief, my stomach decided to do a post-Africa cleanse of sorts and at the same time, our senator's office called letting me know they were able to give us an expedited fingerprinting appointment for immigration but we had to get to the capital in 3 hours, and it is at least 2 hours away from our house and Brad was at work. Now there was a time when any one of these situations could have taken me down, but God and I have developed enough of a history now that I knew I wasn't stuck.  He is never frustrated, so as Antonio and I took turns purging nastiness in the bathroom while I attempted to call Brad at work, I was more curious than anything.  What are we doing Daddy?!  I felt all the dependency of a little girl like Miss Esther who needs most of her daily needs met by somebody else.  

In Isaiah 41 there are 3 times when God says, "Don't be afraid, I will help you."  I am no Bible scholar, but I'm pretty sure God wants to help us and He doesn't want us to be afraid. It's not about how much we have going on, but how much trust we have in the One who gives us moment by moment strategy and ideas and peace and never leaves us to figure it all out ourselves.  He invites us to let go of everything but His hand and learn to walk with Him.


So as we made our mad dash down the interstate to get our fingerprints done (after Antonio had slipped into sleep-it-off-land) and get the clearance in record time, I get a text asking if we needed any extra help at home.  Why yes!  And someone dropped off supper just because they felt led.  And Brad and I managed to stay awake and alert and even a bit perky on the car trip despite being on no established sleep routine from traveling yet.  We even got great ideas for fundraisers for this weekend and I was having happy thoughts on how much Esther is going to love Occupational and Physical therapy with all the swinging through the air stuff.  Thinking these happy thoughts helped pass the time from restroom to restroom where my stomach was still intent on letting me know it was protesting something in a radical way.
And when we got home, the kids were eating supper and we went birthday party shopping because Ari turns 2, Solomon turns 12, Dominic turns 8, and Solana turns 5, all within about a week of each other.  These are all biological children, so apparently we have some sort of mating season.
Just 2 more weekends before we board a plane again to bring Esther home!  I so look forward to celebrating her LIFE as well! 

19 comments:

the_blissful_mommy said...

Jenny, I absolutely cannot read your updates withouttears streaming down my cheeks.
Praying.
Waiting.
So hopeful.
I love Isaiah 41 and I affirm you completely. xxoo

Barb said...

That is wonderful that you got fingerprinted and are going back to bring her home soon! So thankful you have a blog for us to follow along! Good luck with the garage sale!

eli + dawn said...

The story God is writing with your life is a beautiful one, and I cannot wait to see all that He has in store for sweet Esther.

It sounds like our families will be in country at the same time! I was just showing pictures of your Esther to my Esther, and it would be so neat to get to meet you all!

Dawn Ruhl

Lara said...

Amazing. Thanks for the reminder of God's faithfulness.

love said...

lol at mating season. =)

i love watching this play out and your wisdom that the Lord knows and is leading you step by step and fighting for you & precious esther. continued prayers for all of you!

Shauna said...

You are funny and I am proud of you for knowing truth as you battle forward Sister!

Suzy said...

You are too funny (referring to your mating season!). Love your heart for God and your family.

Thank you King Jesus for all the gifts and talents you have given Jenny. Especially the gift of putting her life into words. I'm so thankful she knows how to lean on you, God!

AngelaDormish said...

I can't imagine jumping in a car with tummy troubles and a sick kid, but for you it seems a no brainer. I am always so encouraged by you and the leaps of faith you take to follow hard after Jesus. :)

TnL said...

My family and I are thinking of you and praying for things to go as smooth as possible. You are an inspiration to my husband and I are we are in the middle of our first adoption of 3 from Haiti. You have inspired us to pursue Africa as our next adoption location. God Bless.

Sarah Heywood said...

Jenny - your husband put your blog link on his wall today (I went to school with all the Groothuis kids - Teresa was in my class). I read the entire thing in one sitting - what an incredible blessing. My husband and I are going thru our first adoption experience (thru foster care - we're doing respite care while waiting for a call for "our" kids) and I have found myself battling discouragement in recent days. Your words have really ministered to my aching heart. I'll be praying for you as you wait to bring Esther home!

Dalyn (AKA The Queen of Quite Alot) said...

:)

Lexie said...

you amaze me!!

Heather said...

God is SO good. So look forward to reading about your journey to get your beautiful girl!

Bethany Haid said...

The last photo really strikes me. You look SO happy. I can tell that being a mother really brings you joy. Congratulations on your new "baby"!

"Are These Kids All Yours?" said...

Wow- I thought our birthday/adoption day celebrations were close....apparently not as close as yours :)

PRAYING for Esther for your trip back, for your family as you prepare. For her heart as she finally has a family that God wants for her!

PRAISE GOD!!!

Janna said...

We have never met, but I am totally captured by your family and your story - really, God's story that He is writing through your family's surrender to His plans. That little Esther is absolutely precious! So thankful that God is answering so many of our prayers for her to have a forever family!

Shiloh said...

I've been hoping and praying for Esther for a few months now. I am thrilled and overjoyed you've found her to be yours!! I'll keep her in my prayers, her pictures from Love ane Lexi's blogs just screamed to my heart. Yay for you , Yay for Esther!!

sara h. said...

I snorted at the "mating season" line! LOL! I "found" you guys through Love's blog.... but actually i'm pretty sure your husband went to my high school. Walnut Ridge right? I was a few years behind him.... but i heard alot about the Groothuis boys. I'm so excited to read about this journey!

ESolgos said...

Thanks for this encouraging post. We have way less kids than you, but I really struggle when I am sick! There is nothing like it to make me doubt our family's mission. Thank you for this good word today. I hope next time I am sick I will remember this- God WANTS to help us! So simple, yet I'm so quick to fear!