Thursday, May 31, 2012
8:06 AM | Posted by Jenny | Edit Post
Esther said her first words today: "Mama!" I am sure that was one of the most beautiful sounds I have ever heard. I found a way to carry her down to get her passport and visa photos done because......WE HAVE A COURT DATE! We will be returning June 20th to get little Queen Esther HOME!
While I was reading her medical report I saw words I had heard before: "neurologically devastated." Many of you know about Esther, but I have another daughter Blessing whom many also know. She swallowed lye in Liberia (a common problem because it is odorless, tasteless, used for laundry soap and looks like water so kids get into it and burn their GI tracts, most severely the esophagus) and she could not swallow her spit or food for years. She had multiple surgeries to try to replace her esophagus with various body parts, and right before she was to be discharged last time she had a crazy complication (like never has happened before) which caused an artery to burst in her neck and she bled out and nearly died. They could not get access easily to stop it because of all her previous surgeries and scarring and she lost her entire blood volume multiple times before they finally were able to snip off the ends of her burst artery. The shell-shocked surgeons came to us saying Blessing would be "neurologically devastated" but at least she was miraculously alive. We actually had a little weekend warfare before we left to come to Uganda where Blessing was briefly hospitalized, but she has perfected the art of bouncing back!
And despite not having 1/4 blood flow to her brain....Blessing is neurologically "normal". But the beauty of a large family, and maybe adoptive families in particular, is that you kind of lose your definition of "normal" anyway and my first thought when I heard that was just pragmatic as in, "How will I need to accommodate the house to make getting around easier for her?"
That's how I think about Miss Esther. If she can walk and talk "normally" someday....awesome! If she is not neurologically typical....so what?! When you boil everything down to love...life is just simpler. More Kingdom, more grace, more beauty, more joy. Control is just an illusion anyway and when we give up "the way things are supposed to be" we get to enjoy what God is doing right now, in this moment, without burdening our minds with hypothetical futures and outcomes. All we have is right now to rejoice always, give thanks in everything, and pray without ceasing. That's God's will for your life!
So right now I rejoice that God is speedily bringing Esther into her forever family, I give thanks that Blessing has been doing so good this week, and I pray that you will see the miracle of life every time you look into the eyes of each of your children!